Weekly Musings : Week 4: Journey from Why Me to Why Not Me

When initially we were jolted  with the news that the tumor is malignant,  it was devastating. The immediate thought was why me, why him and why us. In 2019 just having recovered from loss of Kitna and Mani, this news was something that I was refusing to accept. As a strong believer of Karma and doing good to others least I expected was something like this. Even for Manshu who is known in school as a happy child and someone who is helpful and just cheerful we couldn’t believe god can make him through this. Once the tumor was removed we and so many of our well wishers were praying that it turns out to be just a tumor but then it turned out malignant.  The couple of days was very difficult but by then we got many folks sharing their stories and contacts. 

Anu said this type of malignant is cureable and can be managed. Meanwhile Shailesh gave reference of his friend Bharathi who’s son had exactly the same and same age and was fully treated. Dr Swati also told us that medical science has advanced and this is treatable and curable. The PET Scan came all clear and then the Lumbar Puncture was also clear which were all positive news. Slowly we could focus on the positive which was that firstly it got detected at right time, it is treatable and curable, Manas took it positively and started walking, the chemo was helping as he could pass urine and motion and many of our doctor friends also gave same message.  We realized that so many prayers are being answered be it chanting different Vedic chants or doing the Archana’s or prayers in Church and Masjids it dawned that God is there to make things right and make us stronger. We started counting our blessings and accepted that we were chosen for a purpose to make our family bond grow stronger and make us stronger as well. Amen